Thoughts At Sea
I wanted to finally begin a type of series on my site that covered my thoughts along the road so to speak. Sometimes I have things that weigh so heavily on my mind that I feel the need to speak up about it and shed a little bit of light on what’s going on in this brain of mine. I chose the title Thoughts At Sea because it reflects the incoming thoughts and lessons that I am learning while I navigate through this life. In regards to the frequency of these posts, I am unsure of when exactly they will come up, but I think that will make them all the more special.
“exist to be happy, not to impress”
For the entire duration of my high school career, the word “college” rang through my head like a gong. It was ringing not in the sense of indicating a new hour on the clock, but of something unknown; a mysterious tone of sorts. I want to say that my final year of high school looked similar to that scene in Spongebob where Squidward moves into a community neighborhood and it flashes photos of him doing the same thing every day and getting exhausted by it as they flash quicker and quicker, however I did have a little bit of fun that year, but it was relatively sporadic. I spent 75% of my time in the library watching travel videos, looking at travel photos, and spending my time putting together a packing list for my up and coming backpacking trip (which you have all heard about a thousand times by now).
In planning these trips and ordering guidebooks, this was my way of winding down and coming back to myself each day. I could pop in my headphones, unbothered, and let my mind escape to the possibilities of life. This was the year that I spent more time at work and school than my house, my mom was diagnosed with cancer, I had no clue what I was going to do with my future, and it was clearly spelled out to me by my teachers and strangers that I wouldn’t succeed without a degree. I know that we’ve all heard the schpeal about “not letting what other’s say impact you” but when you’re eighteen and you have to make a choice that will line out the rest of your life, taking other’s advice is a halfway decent guiding tool I would say. However, no one knows what is best for you except you. Except for me, apparently, everyone knew what was best for me. It seemed like each day was black or white for me. Some days I was applying for college applications and other’s I was checking flight prices. No matter what day it fell on, I would be asked the expected question that an eighteen-year-old would receive, “Where are you going to college?”, and with a large sigh, I explained that I didn’t know if I was going to go and that I wanted to travel, so on more times that I can count on my hands and feet was the familiar unsupportive “supportive” words or a slow headshake explaining that “I would never make a living that way, I am wasting my intelligence, or I had no life outside of getting a degree.” I was astounded at how many people expressed concerns with how I wanted to live my dreams while they never pursued theirs. As most of you know, I ignored these “caveats” and booked a one-way flight; I’ve been traveling ever since.
With that being said, this is the path I openly and fearlessly chose because this is my dream. I am working endless hours each day to make sure I am keeping my content consistent and building my brand into something that can sustain me. It’s not always the “dream life” but I am in the beginning stages of making all of this come together; as are most of you. If you don’t feel like you’re on the right path, listen to yourself, make a change, and don’t let fear hold you back (I’ll touch on this more at the end).
In this last year, I added five new countries to my “traveled to” list. For some, it’s a number game and they want to add as many as they can and it almost feels so forced from the outside looking in (I am in a girl’s travel group on Facebook and sometimes it comes off that way). Personally, I am in no hurry, no rush, and no race. I had the money to backpack Southeast Asia and beyond when I left last year, but I chose to go home because it didn’t feel right to me. I don’t travel to brag that I’ve been to more places than anyone. I don’t travel so that I can put myself in a higher place because I’ve been to x,y, and z.
I travel because whenever I am abroad, that is when I feel the most creative, curious, and alive. I used to look at photos and think that going to these places was impossible and now everything is an option for me. I get so overwhelmed thinking about how vast and diverse the Earth is because there is no place like Earth. I can get lost in a desert and ride a catamaran across crystal clear water. I can walk through architecture that is centuries old and hike up a mountain so high that I am above clouds. All of these experiences are at the touch of our fingertips, but we aren’t taught that.
In these last three or so months, I received constant messages about how I do what I do. I get questions about finances, and piles and piles of questions that I didn’t even know people cared or wanted to know about. I love answering these questions and for those of you that I have shed a little light on travel for, thank you so much for believing in me and reaching out. So with these questions, there is a light sprinkle of people that tell me they wish they had my life and that their lives are boring, etc. compared to mine.
Everything that I am doing and experiencing is always within your realm of possibility. Travel is something that is advertised as a once a year, once a week thing when it doesn’t have to be; and it shouldn’t be. It’s not an escape. It’s a part of your life.
I am not here to be put on a pedestal. I am a mirror; a reflection of you.
My intentions with all of my social media platforms are not, “look at me; look what I am doing.” All I have ever wanted is to inspire people; to let them know that anything they wish in this life is possible. Just because I am doing something different or “more exciting” doesn’t mean that my life has any extra value than yours. We all have our own path, and we all have a special place in this world.
One quote that gave me one of the largest epiphanies is,
“For what it’s worth: It’s never too late to be who you want to be, whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start over.” – F. Scott Fitzgerald
You can change your life as quickly as you want to cut your hair. For a long time, this was another one of those cliché quotes that everyone says, which it is, but once I took the words literally; it’s some of the best advice that I have ever read.
Sometimes we can be stuck in the confinements of our own minds and physical locations, and in turn, it makes us believe that we don’t have any other options than where we are at this present moment. When in reality, anyone can sell their things, pack their bags, and move halfway across the planet. “Oh, but I can’t because of family, and all my friends are here, I can’t do that, etc, etc..” There is no rulebook for life and there are no limits to what you can do or achieve.
My life isn’t an unattainable goal; it’s not a dream-life; it’s not something to spark jealousy. I’d rather hear “because of you, I chose to follow my dreams” because that has been my intention all along. We all live magical lives; a lot of us just haven’t realized it yet. No one really knows why we’re here on this random floating object in a galaxy that just so happened to be perfect living conditions for human life; but we are all here, capable of anything we desire while getting to experience some pretty breathtaking views along the way. Our whole existence is magical and powerful and we all must realize that anything we ever want in life is already ours, and that is how you receive it.
You are the universe experiencing itself.
Thank you for listening,